For the mind is in the beholder.
You seek the affection you won't get.
Life bites you in the ass at every turn.

Haha, I like a guy at work... ya, got that...
So now I am messing around with and seeing this guy.
Of course I get what i want and then I want something else.
I like this boy at school.
Everything about him seems to surpass others...
Of course, I cant get what I want... So I want him more :(

Funny how shit like that works.
Tehe, I like boys. :)

I finally achieved getting new glasses.
I'm pretty proud!
It's been a couple weeks (I think),
but I'm still getting used to them.
In time. In time.

Oh the "philosopher" sitting in my kitchen.
Thinking he is one who condones all wisdom.
That no one has experienced as much as him,
which means, no one should know more than he.
Oh how I wish he would just fuck off.
"Let's talk about this, i want to discuss and philosophize."
Ha ha, no you don't. you just want to state your side until
it's pounded to far into my head that i cant dispute it anymore.
You don't want to hear another possible option, or that
your theory may in fact, be wrong.
God, you never give it up.
Always saying your so open-minded, and supportive.
If so, then how is it you are so completely opposite all of the time.
I seriously wish, this "philosopher" would stop trying to get through to me.
Stop talking to me. I thought he would have just accepted ages ago that I
despise his being around at all, I wish he would just go away.

is it sad to admit that what I thought was wasn't
is it really that hard to see the truth behind the words
what once was felt never left.. it lingered in silence
now it scratches at every glimpse of light
waiting to be let out of the darkness of hiding

The feelings of pain were never real
The feelings of loss were just a mask
I never lost what was there

It's sad to know that I still feel this way
I thought things would change
But I guess this is never really that easy

Sleep weighs down my eyelids
The commercials echo through my ears.
Names and Phrases glide across the screen.
Lights flash in colors below
Buzzing frantically above my head
Persistance of the future holds

you see, when i am bored, i take pictures, lots of pictures.
and then i play with them on picasa!! yay fun!!